"For if God's name is I AM, (my) name must be I am not.
I am not the center of everything.
I am not in control.
I am not the solution.
I am not all-powerful.
I am not callng the shots.
I am not the owner of anything.
I am not the Lord"
-i am not but i know who I AM
We're selfish by nature. We want the story to focus on us, we seek to make our lives and our actions about us. But who are we?
We examine God's Word and look for anything that applies to our lives and our situations, we try to make the gospel about us.
We pray to God and ask Him to meet our needs, we focus on making our time with God about us. But who are we?
We didn't create the heavens and the earth, we we're even there when it happened. Notice, man came after God had already established the world and everything in it. As for you and me personally... we were simply items on God's To Do list.
The attention and the glory of it all so obviously belong to Him yet we continue to take it for ouselves. Why?
I got this book at Passions, and now I can't stop asking myself why I seek to make it all about me. So far, I haven't been able to come up with a decent answer. There's really no excuse for my ego. It's God story, His show...I'm merely a supporting player. It's been a humbling experience to say the least.
Now I wonder "how can I make this life about Him."
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
...for prayer
"Is there anything I can pray for you about?"
People have been asking me that question for years, but I don't think I've ever given them an honest answer. I would ask them to pray for school, for work, for a closer walk with the Lord...and even though I do need prayer in these areas, there is so much more going on in my life right now.
What kills me the most is that the people I know and love don't have a clue. Hell, I've been called normal so many times I feel like I should jump off a building just to show them how wrong they are.
Tonight someone I barely knew asked how they could pray for me. Nothing new, but when I stepped back I realized something: this person could see through my act, they can sense the pain in my voice and they want to help...either that or it really has become more obvious. Either way I actually had to fight to keep from breaking down right then and there.
My life isn't even that bad when you compare it to the ones you hear about on the news or at school. Deep down, I know I'm blessed to be who I am where I am.
Of course, then I start to think about everyone I know who's sick or struggling and my heart just breaks for them. More than anything I want to help them, to take their pain away so they can enjoy the life God has given them. But I can't or I don't and then...
I hate feeling so powerless.
I'm trying to give it to God and trust that He will help, heal, encourage, provide, and protect those who serve Him but it's difficult when, at the same time, He promises we will face trials and tribulations.
One verse that keeps coming to mind is Acts 17:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
With that said, all I really can do is pray and hope-
pray for my mother, my father, both my sisters and their friends, my future brother-in-law, my grandparents, Kyle, Taryn, Chao, Chad's father, Cameron, Shannon and her friends, Blake's family, Joanna, Saralynn, Stephen, John, Greg, the Millers, the Bartons, the people I work with, the people in my philosophy class, all my aunts, uncles, and cousins...to name a few.
pray for my struggles with school, work, money, my car, peer pressure, my capacity to forgive, my selfish nature, lust, depression, my fear of rejection/failure, loneliness, and my trust in the Lord...to name a few
pray for the world
pray for Jesus to return soon
...or at least pray that the writer's strike would end so I'd have something to take my mind off all these things
People have been asking me that question for years, but I don't think I've ever given them an honest answer. I would ask them to pray for school, for work, for a closer walk with the Lord...and even though I do need prayer in these areas, there is so much more going on in my life right now.
What kills me the most is that the people I know and love don't have a clue. Hell, I've been called normal so many times I feel like I should jump off a building just to show them how wrong they are.
Tonight someone I barely knew asked how they could pray for me. Nothing new, but when I stepped back I realized something: this person could see through my act, they can sense the pain in my voice and they want to help...either that or it really has become more obvious. Either way I actually had to fight to keep from breaking down right then and there.
My life isn't even that bad when you compare it to the ones you hear about on the news or at school. Deep down, I know I'm blessed to be who I am where I am.
Of course, then I start to think about everyone I know who's sick or struggling and my heart just breaks for them. More than anything I want to help them, to take their pain away so they can enjoy the life God has given them. But I can't or I don't and then...
I hate feeling so powerless.
I'm trying to give it to God and trust that He will help, heal, encourage, provide, and protect those who serve Him but it's difficult when, at the same time, He promises we will face trials and tribulations.
One verse that keeps coming to mind is Acts 17:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
With that said, all I really can do is pray and hope-
pray for my mother, my father, both my sisters and their friends, my future brother-in-law, my grandparents, Kyle, Taryn, Chao, Chad's father, Cameron, Shannon and her friends, Blake's family, Joanna, Saralynn, Stephen, John, Greg, the Millers, the Bartons, the people I work with, the people in my philosophy class, all my aunts, uncles, and cousins...to name a few.
pray for my struggles with school, work, money, my car, peer pressure, my capacity to forgive, my selfish nature, lust, depression, my fear of rejection/failure, loneliness, and my trust in the Lord...to name a few
pray for the world
pray for Jesus to return soon
...or at least pray that the writer's strike would end so I'd have something to take my mind off all these things
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