...for God only knows

I want to start off by thanking everyone who responded to my last post; your prayers, your support and your guidance probably saved my life.
I wish I could say I'm all better now, but I'm afraid it's not that easy. It never is, but I've still got a lot bitterness and resentment I need to work through.
...I really thought coming to DBU would be different. When I visited during the summer I thought this school would be a perfect fit for me, that it would be the answer to all my prayers. Needless to say, when I finally arrived I came in with these huge expectations, and when they weren't met I took it really hard. It sounds stupid and weak I know, but one can only take so much disappointment before they fall apart.
Whatever, I don't want to get into another rant about my problems. I just want to say I'm still fighting-even if I don't know why, I'm still healing, and I'm still searching.
Thank you all and God bless.